Sleep to dream

I hope you know: I don’t need this anymore. 

I hope you also know: That I love you, almost as much as I love myself. Just because I love you, doesn’t mean it’s okay to hurt me and stomp on my pride.  I want you here, there’s nowhere else I’d rather you be. But for me to really want you here, you must first want to be here yourself. 

I hope you: Prove to me that I’m not wasting my time, feed me actions, not just words. Show me that you couldn’t stand to be without me, and prove to me that you love me even half as much as you say you do.

I need you to: Stop feeling sorry for youyouyou and suck it up, be a man. For christs sake, it’s time. Stop doing things you know are going to hurt me and bother you.

I need you to know: I’m done being insecure, because I know you’ll never find anybody better than me. You’ll never find anybody smarter, easier to deal with/get along with. You’ll never find somebody who loves you as much as I do, and you’ll NEVER find somebody who puts up with any of this like I do. 

I need you to realize:  I can live without you, as much as it hurts to think about having to, I have before, I can do it again and I will if things don’t change. I’m done. From now on, it’s up to you. 

You want to be with me? Fine. Chase me until you catch me and don’t you ever, EVER let go.

He says, “I Wish I could do better by you ‘cause that’s what you deserve. You sacrifice so much of your life in order for this to work. And when you cry, a piece of my heart dies knowing I may have been the cause.”

Or at least he should.